i hate myself sometimes...

today is Saturday and i havnt blogged since Monday ...
but i've been trying to keep up with my twitter accounts.

I've also been trying to find a good video maker website so i can get some shit on my youtube channel.
I've been boring lately but i'm trying to keep up..

Me and my boyfriend had a huge fight and broke up a couple days ago...
he smashed his hand, and his phone..
i feel rele bad, but we're back together..
and you know why??
because theres a reason we've made it this far together.
we love eachother soo fucking much, and i cannot imagine life without him<3

He's the only thing holding me together in life..
i hate hurting him, but whats a relationship without the feeling of pain?
he makes me happy...
i would do anything for him.

i hate myself for hurting me, and making him feel awful about it but i try.
I guess this is just a post explaining how i feel in life.
and how do i feel\???
when im not with him, im depressed.

ive been depressed since i was 3 but hes actually turning all tht around.

I've been bullied, hurt, attacked, and grew up with an abusive person...
I still stand strong though because do i really have a choice???

oh well... i guess thats it for now..
love you guys :p

ttyl

Halloween! :D

OMG! IT'S FRIGGIN' HALLOWEEN!
ahha, i rhymed! XD


So i didn't go out for halloween and free candy BUT i did dress up for fun tonight ..
soo here's some pics ;)

i look so zombie-like :o

well Thats all for now Folks... Hope you all enjoyed your awesome Halloween Night! =D

Trainwreck XD

"you're a trainwreck, but with you i'm inlove"

hi peoples ....how are ya'll... wait.. i didnt want orange:$
lol... anywaays how are you peoples?
im in biology at the moment. very exciting(=

watching a movie and doing an assignment except i just started since at first it wouldnt let me log in.

ohohohohohohohohohoh... halloween is this MONDAY !! yiippie..
but wait ,why do i carE???-.-
i dont... yeh i like halloween but im a loner and frankly i cant go out anymre for it..

what are you gunna be for halloween?

you know what im gunna be??
a loner geek.. :/

i wish someone would text me...
imisspeoples;;;;;.....whyy is my text blck now??
honesly, i didnt even touch the text buttons this time:$

oh well... http://www.explorelearning.com/index.cfm?method=cResource.dspDetail&ResourceID=448&ClassID=1629699

this is the gizmo tht we're doing in class...:$ im bored..
lawwls, thats it for now.. im gunna upload some home vids at some point..

baibai:D

Title... [because i cant think of anything better]

Theres this chick on Youtube who I saw singing "fix a heart" by Demi Lovato and she is AMAZING!
i will find it and post the link eventually..
but for now im in Anthro right now writing about Freud...

I think i am losing my mind...

i need advice but i dunno who to ask because no one has the right answer for my situation..
Im such a loner although i have friends... but it's like nobody cares??? i guess

whats on YOUR mind blogger world????!!!
bring me your feedback !

Updates.

So i gots back a report at school from Anthropology and i gots 20 outta 25.... yipppie :D

i was doing experiments yesterday where i made a bomb...
it didnt work... but this is how its made....


>>> take a sandwich sized bag and put 1/4 of water, and 1/2 of vinegar inside of it..
then put 3 tsp of baking soda inside a tissue and fold it...


take this bag outside or atleast in the sink.... (but i suggest outside)
the tissue makes there be enuff time for you to zip up the bag and then step back..
if all goes well it'll start to expand, and eventually pop...




I also did a coin one.... where i out 1/4 of vinegar in a non-metal bowl, 
then mix like 2 tsp of salt in with it...
put about 5 pennies(dirty) into it..
count to 10 slooowwwwllllllyyyyyy.!
then remove them and rinse them good with water,.
leave them out to dry..
then add a couple more pennies into the bowll..
do the same thing except this time, dont rinse them...
just leave them to dry,,,


what you should notice is that the ones rinsed off are now shiny..
and the ones that were left to dry should of started to turn a bluish-green color.






SCIENCE !!!! <<<


lol ...


so i am very tired... 


i need followers so come follow me ...i'll get more interesting dont worry!!!


"mama, im inlove with a criminal"

baii for now!

My lifes update.

So this is just an update of what i am doing..

yesterday i was with cats and dogs, and today i am in the nursery with babies and toddlers.

i love keeping busy ,and i love taking care of things lol :D

i really want/need a new phone, mine restarts whenever it feels like, and its fucked..

i also want a phone where you can see the whole convo in one screen because when i forget what i sent, i have to exit then go to my sent messages..

and its annoying. 

What phone do you suggest i get if i get one??

Thats it for now ,since i have to get ready to work lol

baibai XD

My New Bear Hat!!!

hi !!!

I bought a new hat today .. (= its a bear.
havnt named it yet tho lol
but its deffinitely a boy ;)


haha ..sooo heres some pixxx..

hes soo cute;) 




































Current song: In the dark by Dev
Current Outfit: black and green Fox shirt, and Green and Blue Fox Pjs.
Current Mood: Sick, and tired.
Current thought: when the hell is Jordan getting here??? :O


Next song: How to love by lil' wayne


Thats basically it i guess. =$$
see ya'll next time. :D