i hate myself sometimes...

today is Saturday and i havnt blogged since Monday ...
but i've been trying to keep up with my twitter accounts.

I've also been trying to find a good video maker website so i can get some shit on my youtube channel.
I've been boring lately but i'm trying to keep up..

Me and my boyfriend had a huge fight and broke up a couple days ago...
he smashed his hand, and his phone..
i feel rele bad, but we're back together..
and you know why??
because theres a reason we've made it this far together.
we love eachother soo fucking much, and i cannot imagine life without him<3

He's the only thing holding me together in life..
i hate hurting him, but whats a relationship without the feeling of pain?
he makes me happy...
i would do anything for him.

i hate myself for hurting me, and making him feel awful about it but i try.
I guess this is just a post explaining how i feel in life.
and how do i feel\???
when im not with him, im depressed.

ive been depressed since i was 3 but hes actually turning all tht around.

I've been bullied, hurt, attacked, and grew up with an abusive person...
I still stand strong though because do i really have a choice???

oh well... i guess thats it for now..
love you guys :p

ttyl